ME

I might not be the a popular likeable character
I might not be smart
I might not be charming
People might not like the way I threat others
People might object the way I deal with things
But no matter how this is me
I won’t change because you don’t like my way
I fight against any injustice
I walk in the border of the law
I speak and object to things I don’t like
I do the things the way I feel is most effective 
The benefit of whom and what I am concern is what I care the most
I don’t bother what position or power you have
I hate people who are conservative
I hate people who force others to accept their thinking
I hate the useless government who wasted all our effort of building the country
This is my way 
When a person have found who or what they want to be
Even the force of a falling meteor will change my will
And I will stand still and firm no matter what
This is me and it is up to your to choose whether you want to know me or not

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Faces

Every living creature in the world is equipped with some type of defense mechanism,
These mechanisms are used to protect oneself against the cruel nature.
Camouflage is a disguise using the colour or odour of the environment to keep itself out of sight.
Even though in the human nature there isn’t any such mechanism,
But due to the supernatural ability of men’s adaptability,
Human have over came our handicap and fully utilize what we possess.
Men are capable of having few different personalities at different occasions.
This is a very special type of skill in the survival kit.
I once knew a very quiet and shy girl,
She never talked much in the class 
And always leaves class exactly the time when school end.
She waits at the school gate, right next to a “7-Eleven” store.
The two whole years she never even stepped into the store
Because her mother forbids her from doing so.
This clearly shows how obedient and honest she is.
Only recently, I saw another of the Face.
It might be one that is on the inner layer,
She acts and thinks based solely on her own benefit such a prudish person
Despite on what the first impression I have for her,
I truly hate this type of people that can bear two totally different characteristic
Just to gain other’s trust in order to crush it later.
When one have seen the dark side of the person’s characteristics, 
Can a new bond of trust being build again?
After seeing how hypocritical she can be, 
Can we prevent ourselves from suspecting that one day she might betray everyone for her personal interest?
When someone have shown the most hideous part of her nature,
That particular person won’t be able to gain other’s trust so easily anymore.
There are also situations where shy people try to act cool to cover their passionate self.

This is a great gift, but have you put your potential to the fullest?
Try to use it in a moral way, not to deceive others, but to help them.

Conscious

As a rigid person
My decision is as firm as a thousand year old tree’s root
Never move even on the biggest storm
That was what I thought before it came
Why is the truth and justice I stand for all this time become nothing when I encounter this?
Are all these unquestionable values as timid as ant before this Moral Gangster?
Why is the whole world so thoroughly corrupted by the few decayed years?
Even after the few thousand years of moral implant?
Does this means that one day one’s life could be exchanged with all this illusionary matters?
In the near future there might be a possibility that we can buy one’s honour.
Or maybe one’s soul?
Is living such a miserable thing that we have to give in to materials that we create satisfy our desires?
Working our whole life just to acquire a bigger house, better car?
Since when have men turned into such lowly creatures?
Something told me that to live is to be an honourable man, not a working slave.

Achilles heels

When is someone most vulnerable?
Why did the full-time alert man suddenly became so careless?
My guard got down
Proven the trust for you
Yet why do you have to hurt me again and again?
And why is every wound worse than the one before?
It is like breaking someone’s soul again and again
Maybe till one day I will cease existing
And finally become not shattered pieces but vanished pieces

But still, I never regretted anything I hoped for
Is it because this is as the legend?
The legend that one can only truly love once
And if failed he will live on as only a body without its soul?

Uncertain facts

Good and Evil
Light and Darkness
Angel and Devil
God and Satan

All are opposites,
Bright and clear.
Have anyone ask questions when they see the heroic movies of Hollywood?
Questions if there is justice?
Questions if what is justice?
Is there is,
I might be one of them.
Cops and street bullies,
What are their differences?
Lets talk about the thing they have in common first.
Both of them have guns
Both of them take money from the people
Both of them are capable of terrible violence
And both of them speak with their fist.
And what differentiates them?
Some say it is the heart of justice that counts.
I say the money bullies take are black-mail fees;
The money cops take are bribery.
I say the bullies fight against the law;
The cops bully with the law in their back.

But I don’t deny of the existents of great cops with a great heart
The problem is that we cannot differentiate 
Whether he is a cop with a great heart
Or a wolf with a sheep skin.

So is there still absolute truth when all are contaminated?
Is there still great charming heroes like in the movies?

I doubt it.

Streaked by undeniable forces

The possibility of fulfilling a five thousand years old superiority. The current Republic of China also known as Mainland. From the word Mainland we can see the bold nature of Chinese. This current event is to prove to the world of the awakening of a sleeping dragon. Chinese always know that there are different characteristic is them that proves them unique. From the trace of history, China haven’t really met its worth opponent, most of the misery cause was mostly because of the mismanagement of the central government or the trigger of civil wars.

There is always this hidden vanity inside us, since the First Emperor, but lately this thought simply hid, ashamed by the defeat of world war, and the humility of unable to even protect its country during the invasion of The Eight Nation Alliance. It’s not an emendable wound. The only thing that could be done is like the acts taken by the current China government, ruining the whole nation with luxury, fame and cash.

For the best decision done in the history of China, the Olympic is another part of the drama of “The Spoiled Child with His Big Ant Farm”. Why is it a big ant farm? They never know what is going to happen next, they only do and sees what happens. But still there are many who are still in the illusion that they are heading for something bigger, a greater future, a bolder goal, a better tomorrow. And now the kid is trying to blame other kids trying to destroy his ant farm. Do not blame others for our own mistake! Since long ago have Chinese stressed that we are a great nation that loves peace, but yet we create weapons of mass destruction. We emphasis on moral behaviors, and yet we destroy civilians’ home with the reason “FOR THE GREATER GOOD”. I’ve see many criminals using the same reason when they kill their victim, saying that they are a hand of God trying to cleanse this polluted community. Are you not so? 

Sometimes, we can see the rebellious side of Mother Nature through many phenomena, maybe it’s the 512 earthquake, or it might be the frequent natural disaster lately? Going against nature come at a very high stake, but are you able to bear the cost? Or you are going to let your ants suffer because of your unnecesary stubbornness? 

All the clues only lead to one end, a widely known end. But is this great kid going to put down his ego and learn to read the signs? Is vice versa an option? Or is it a suicide move?

The Game

When you want to pursue someone
First thing the person will tell you is that 
They are busy at the current moment

Busy is a word
And also an excuse
For any woman that tells that she is busy
She is lying
For any man that says that he is busy
He is also lying
But there is a difference between both
The first one is trying to emphasis that she is available
But you don’t qualify
The second one is telling you that he had tried this cruel game and lost
So get lost before he turns you as a victim of retaliation

Sex does change how someone thinks
A man is always available until he is disappointed
He goes to any type of pub
He sleeps with any type of woman
He often work until he sleeps in front of the computer
Man uses many things to keep themselves from thinking about the long lost love

A woman is never available until she is amazed
She tries to pretend that she is not interested in any man
She often says that she can be perfectly well without man
She will break down 
After she break up with the man that she have really fallen for
The heaven and hell before and after she is in love

Why do people still wan to play with this cruel game?
Why go into the trap as you know you will be injured?
Why waste your precious time on some fantasy?
Why is it so seducing that there isn’t anyone alive that is immune to it?

I recommend this quote

“Love is a Name; Sex is a Game
   
  Forget the Name and play the Game”

Human weakness

I once believed in eternal friendship
But this experience taught me that everything that has a beginning has its end
And when the end comes 
Do not go against the forces of nature because you will get hurt
It’s like a country
United for too long it will separate 
Separated for too long it will unite
That is the law and even if you are united again

It will never be the same as before

Just like wound that will never heal again

I’ve learnt that there is no eternity
But now I am still here hoping for miracle to happen
Maybe this is part of being human
Hoping for the impossible

Karma

For today’s competition
I saw the respect of English Drama Competition’s judges towards to contestants
Even there were teams that used other languages in their performance
In order to display their creativity
There was no unreasonable scolding after the competition
Nor is there any apology force by the teachers to show their superiority
This is a great act of respecting the students as human
The Newton’s third law of motion
That is for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction
There is another name for this law in real life
Karma
What you do will come back to yourself
Deeds will be repaid by deeds
So are unfair treatments.

Unbearable Cost

Since I started 
I couldn’t stop
From the moment I saw you everything changed
Food became tasteless
Yet your are still flawless

From the incidents lately I realized
This isn’t love
This is a kind of appreciation towards beauty
I never notice the problem until you said no
I went through hell and heaven for that one single NO
But still thank you

I found out 
That someone you love 
Is the one you can talk to when you are sad or down
The one and can talk to you when she is sad or down
And it is happy and relaxed when both of us are together
Not only trying to be in tip-top shape every single second

I realized that
It was your humor I liked
It was the daring and adventurous nature in you that I like
It was your passionate character that I liked
But now it is gone
I don’t want it gone 
Just because of those three words
And now I regret it
For a unchangeable loss
I not only lose in the love part
Fore most I lost a great friend

Theories are for Fools

Theory is a philosophy told by those who are wise to those who are ordinary.
And those ordinary will take that philosophy as their guide in life.

From history we can see the great influence of theory.

There was once a Chinese prime minister named Wang a Shi. He encourages the change of giving out grain seeds as a loan to the farmers. This was a great was to enhance the development of agriculture, but yet the conservative party, with Shi Ma Ian as their leader, took action against him because their benefits is in jeopardy.

Later in the Qing Dynasty, two brave men stood up to fight against the dictatorship of CIF Xi but yet they got their skulls removed by metal blades. Those two men are Kang You Wei and Liang I Cao.

From there we can see the theory, where the conservatives who are afraid of shifts that happens time to time, is not willing to adapt according the changes of life, instead the chose to blame others for the changes happening or just purely deny the shift. This type of people doesn’t happen to understand the meaning of mentally independent, and to think for themselves. They accept one of the philosophies told, and take it as a guidance book for the rest of their lives. Due to the lack of independent thought, this people tend to be a piece of teaching machine and continue on wasting time and creating more and more miserable fools like themselves.

Waste of Space, Resource and Time.

Struggle of life

It is hard being a man
It’s not the hardship of earning a living
But the hollow in the center of you soul
This hollow isn’t cause solely of the emptiness
Loneliness is the true murderer
A man destined for greatness stuck with fools
Saw his future and dreams came crumbling down
What can he do?
These are the hardship of being a man.

Sham Smile, Happy Tears

Happiness is a type of emotion given by nature to all its being as a gift.
Sadness is directly opposite, a special type of expression that help us grief for the things that doesn't suits us.
With this two amazing gifts, we can express ourselves.

Even happiness is an expression to show that you are delighted,
But sometimes things go differently than they are meant to be.
Sometimes Joy is only to calm those around us,
A tool to make keep all the true sorrow to ourselves
Because we do not wish others around us being bothered
By the unwanted dilemma we are forced to face.

Similarly,
Tears can also be shed just to close up how cold-blooded men really are,
Something to show that we are alive,
Just to show others,
Not to ourselves.
I shed tears to feel pity for myself
For being so weak, unable, vulnerable.
But let it be known that those tears aren't only shed for this sole purpose
I will stand up after this fall
Gravity is not something I will surrender to
Let alone those try to set me down.


No matter it is giving a Smile or shedding Tears.
What that really counts is
The Pride and Honour gained by doing so.

Freedom of choice

By all means, what that really matters to the people today is the freedom, democracy. There is no one that doesn’t think of this as anything other than a ridiculous joke before the Renaissance. It was like assaying Alexander the Great was a homosexual, that Jesus had a wife and son like everyone else. But does this prevent this from being the truth? Later after our ancestors fought for the all these rights, we have all these rights we could use to defend our personal rights and benefit. But now life had changed, many don’t think of the history behind all these rights we have, they take every rights we have as a basic right that SHOULD be there. History should be revised, Before the Renaissance there is no such thing as freedom, or right among the peasants. Human can be treated as items for sale or even as animals just for the entertainment. Even until the 16th century the Europeans, famous for their democratic thinking, conquered Africa’s country by force and capture the people as slaves to be shipped to America. These are facts, shown from the history. None of these rights is necessarily ours, the rights are given because the person-in-charged wants to have a balance between the authority of the government and the support of the people.

More over we speak of the freedom of choice, the one thing that is most important, but do we know what is choice? Is it the right to chose? Is it different from the old times where everything is decided by the people incharged? What about the monopoly of a certain area or market by a company or a particular individual? Does that include in the choice you have? What choice do you have when you only have one option? Please do not look at this lightly. The profit or monopoly of a certain market can generate enough money for that company to conquer a country, which would create chaos and destroy the harmony of the world. However this could be solved very easily by being better at choosing, do not chose only because of the brand, you have to look at the products. Examine if you need this kind of product, or the qualities that it provides. Do not doubt your power to select or freedom of choice, because you have more than one option, either not to choose, or to choose among all the choices you are given. Therefore all shall be aware of the importance of your choice and the effects that will occur if anything goes wrongly.

I'm Single

Why is it that I am the one that always do the talking?
Is it because you want to show that you are not interested?
Why do you threat me like a stranger?
Is it a hint for me to give up?
I never thought of it until yesterday.
Why am I so dumb?
There are so many clues that tell me one thing,
Give up
Then so be it.
But is it so hidden that I didn’t notice?
Or I refuse to accept it?
Why do I refuse to do so?
Am I so eager for this relationship?
Am I?
To be hurt over and over again is something I have been facing
Or can I say that something that I have got used to
Maybe I am destined to be a lone ranger for the rest of the year.
I can live with that
In fact I have been living with that for the past few years

I am single…

Between Us

There might be times where you feel like you are alone and don’t know what to do. And I am in that time now. I a very busy person, I take part in many school activities. Meeting, marching, games, camps I’m already numb to all these. In a busy life, I can’t find time to do other things, such as family, sports and love.
Love, is something very unfamiliar to me. I once had a fantasy.

The first look on your smile hypnotized me,
Is that love at first sight?
I am not sure,
I’m not sure if I’m in love.
But if I’m really in love,
What should I do?
Dates? Chocolates? Flowers?
I would really want something more realistic.
Not those epic movies we see.

Acquaintance between both of us,
Important place for each of our heart,
Deep love for the sake of each other,
Care and thoughtful,
And one thing to finish it all,
True love’s first kiss
To seal this ever-lasting myth.

I hope that this might happen.

















Between us.

Folly’s Decision

Maybe there is something that I missed out,
Maybe there is another meaning behind your rejection,
Maybe you love me but doesn’t want me to get it too easily,
All these “maybes” are excuses I made for myself,
Something to make myself feel better.

Maybe it is very simple,
Maybe I am too afraid to see anything,
Maybe it is time I learn to accept the changing matters,
All these are the things I should truly look at,
Maybe I am just not good enough.

For the devil and angel in my head,
Wars and battles have been fought,
Yet there isn’t a winner.
One day I haven’t made up my mind,
The decision won’t be made.
To accept or just to stay firm?

I am a folly,
Why not just listen to the equipoise?
Why not just listen to my heart?
It tells me one thing,
And one thing only.




You’re the one.